bare and empty

Today as I was walking back home from the bus-stop, I wish I could...

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lie on the bed with a good book

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play the piano

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drive my car out to grab an ice-cream or a cake

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Checked my room and found I have...

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plenty of textbooks and references (borrowed fr library), a book on apologetic and another on relationship... don't really feel like reading these.

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no piano....but a worship book with musical notations which a Vietnamese friend lend it to me when she heard me playing the piano (at a religion center's meeting room psu)

a bus pass... which takes me around the 'college' areas.

a butternut squash

sold for 50c at the farmer's market. you bake it with butter and brown sugar. I'll tell u how it taste after i burn her. My first time!

I wish I can say I have nothing but I'm rich in Christ... sounds like THE quote for missionaries. Well, they probably used it when they're surrounded by babies gained in Christ or treasures stored in heavens. But I don't have any of those....

but those that I have, I'm holding on to it.. perhaps too tight?

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freebies

the stationaries were given by an SLP fr Virgnia's public school. The gov will fund you if you are willing to work in the public school. The bag of cookies were given away free. A college girl (and friends) with a box of em asked "you want cookies?"... I turned back to ask why but she left.

weekends

State college. View taken from Harvest Field, Calvary Baptist church. Can you spot the football traffic (after the game)? People and vehicles start lining up 3 hours before the show. The whole town will be painted in blue and white during football weekend.

Finally I can steal a breath ! I've had weekly assignments and quizzes (x2). America's BIG on constant assessment and I took a heavy load this semester.

Anyways, some updates...

Last weekend was very eventful back home.

1# Grandma passed away on Friday.

2# My brother's wedding was over the weekend

3# I could only witness these events faraway... sigh. I've been up since 3am studying. Exam week.

But last Saturday was full of surprises

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1# I received my first postcard from M'sia! My dearest thought he wrote to the wrong address. I left a note at my mailbox for the postman to look out for it. (postal system is good here. They constantly update their residents' record. The mailman took the trouble to knock at doors to verify mails)

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2# A stranger came knocking at my door when I was home alone. I peered through the little hole at my door and saw a man holding a bunch of something. "Flower delivery" he said. It came with a water-filled vase. I thought it was for my house-mate but my name was written on the card instead.

I feel so treasured :) The roses are as large as my fist. The largest that I've ever seen !

3# Farmer's Market ! My first time going there. :) The market meets every Friday in downtown, south side of my campus. It only occupies half a street (cannot beat our pasar malam). But I get fresh veges and fruits from the local farms (and Amish people too). Walmarts and the hypermarkets don't usually get their supply locally. Btw, apples here are 3x more expensive than apples in M'sia AND meat is cheaper than vegs. A phenomenon which doesn't make sense to me.

Apple cider. Yummy :)

Plums. Got these from the market. A basket of 20+ for USD 3. It looks big here but one plum is the size of a fish ball (M-L).

The berries were taken from the bouquet. I changed the hue to give it a Fall feel. The weather is getting colder now to make way for Fall. There are lots of plants with berries here.


I cooked my first curry dish today! I made this for the M'sia (chinese) potluck dinner. Not alot of us in Penn State.

today's a better day

Pictures are not in order (too lazy to drag and sort for now). Story's below the pictures :

Today's a better day. I walked down the road to Calvary Baptist Church (CBC). On the map, it's 'just' along University Drive (A straight street that pass through my campus). The walk took 40 minutes? tee hee...

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On the way, a new student stopped by to ask for directions. Halfway through the american grad student (my guess) went "are you from Malaysia?". I was like "how do you know?" He said he was from university of Michigan and there were many Malaysians there. So he shook my hands heartily. As if he was very proud of meeting a malaysian.

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Suddenly, along the straight road, i met a sign that said "pedestrian prohibited". Amazed was I. I've never seen such a sign in M'sia before. Not on a straight road at least. It's a bridge road that does not have a pedestrian trail. So I walked under the bridge and took a loop back.

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Anyways, CBC had a free furniture giveaway. By the time I arrived most of the furnitures which filled the halls were looted. The organizers were amazed. They thought they'd to stay till the evening. But I figured I wouldn't need them anyways, so it was ok. I had a msn phone chat with my parents in the morning (their Sat night). I collected some bedsheets, thick blankets, towels and cloth hangers back. Plus a box of new wooden picture frames and some candles. Later, I helped to clean up the church, which really reminded me of church back home. Even the initials are the same. :P

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Then I had lunch at Back Yard's with 3 amazing people. This is the first time (besides Johanna) I get to sit down to have a good long chat. They are two americans guys and a taiwanese girl. All god-loving people with a mission in mind.

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And best of all the taiwanese girl offered me a place to bunk in while I room-hunt. I'm glad. :)

departure and arrival

Some pictures taken on my journey here. The better days ;p

KLIA

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Waiting for my flight to S'pore. It felt like ages. Like I was neither here nor anywhere. I could grab a taxi home if I were to wait any longer. Saying goodbye to my love ones was painful

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Changi

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I like the lights illuminating through the floor. My friend came to greet me. I ended up resting at her place while transiting. That was my first time taking a cab at 330am in the morning. I think my dad was worried-fied. I'd to text him when I reached the airport. I got a reply back. So guess he stayed up for me. ophs.

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Changi

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I was bored waiting at Changi at wee hours in the morning. Next flight was 6+am. Airport security was strict. I saw armed officers. One of them took down my details when i was wondering alone at my empty boarding gate.

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HKIA

Mountains

I flew the artic way... a stretch of mountain ranges. Miles and miles it went. It might have been Siberia?

Mountains with feathey ice tops

Ice Sheets

My flight was catching the sun. The last time i saw night was in S'pore. But the window panels were always down. So that others could sleep. But it's kinda gloomy inside the plane. I couldn't sleep very well. The last panel of windows behind was unshut though cause nobody sits there. It's also a hang-out place for ppl who couldn't zzz or who liked to stare out.

Chinese noodles

Can you believe they serve us instant noodles at 9pm at night? Yeaps, that's united airlines. They switchd it to Chicago's time in the middle of the night, so it was 8am local time. But my tummy still craved for a big meal.

Guess where?

I missed my connecting flight here. Long immigration queue and rule abiding officers. They wouldn't allow me to cut queue even though my flight (to Pittsburgh) was boarding soon. O'hare is a huge airport. It's not that impressive though. Grey was what I saw. I can't tell one end of the airport from another apart. And it was hard to find a phone that could call out of state. Weird hur? Considering that it's an 'international' airport. A kind stranger borrowed her hp to me so that I could inform Dave, my friend's husband, that I would be late. Oh ya, my mobile phone can't be used here. Anyways, by the time I arrived at Jo's house in Ebensburg it was 1.30am. Was supposed to reach her place at 9pm if I had not miss my flight. Oh ya, we were trapped in a terrible jam on the way back too.

as for now...

The initial excitement for u.s. has waned off... i'm missing malaysian food (healthy food), my friends, my good old family, my car, cheaper hp rates, manglish. *sigh*

I met a couple of friends and some really friendly church people. There's an international student ministry over in my uni consisting of navigators and a few local churches. They offer free lunches, pinics, free furnitures, outings. Neat. I almost cried when i stepped into a church on Wednesday. It reminds me of home, or maybe it's a place where people care for you, or maybe just being in church itself is nostalgic.

Meanwhile, please pray for accomodations for me. I have not found any so far. The houses nearby the campus have all been fully booked. Penn state took in more students than the town could cope. It's crazy. There's a lady from Navigators who allowed me to bunk in for a few weeks. Glad am I that God decided not to leave me out on the streets. :p But it's 6 miles away though !! the buses only come 4 times in the day. No service on weekends.

Overwhelmed but filled with grace.

Goodnight.

Malaysia, I miss you...

9 more days...

I have 9 days more in Malaysia before I bid her goodbye. Yet the reality of me leaving has not set in. Here are some thoughts that are flying in my mind :

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aaasunset at the beach below tanjung tuan light house, PD

Workplace:

1. My colleague gave me a USD 20 note. Said it's for my taxi fare to transit in between terminals, so that I won't miss my flight.

2. A parent dropped by on a non-class day to pass me a gift. It's a book with a lovely prayer written inside. Jer 29 :11-13 was given as a promise and I miss-yous. My 5 year old student has the cutest smile (Parents' blog here)


What to pack:
Besides my summer wardrobe (the ONLY seasonal clothes i have in abundance), I would like to bring these along :

1. all of you
2. my room
3. diary, cards, gifts, photos (that will remind me of my good friends here)
4. CDs (no pirated CDs allowed. I have yet to download my music collection in my laptop
5. medication & spices
6. books (sparingly. It would be heavy to carry them there. I figure I'll have more books to buy there)
7. Cash (all donations are welcome)


Hanging in the air
1. Medical report
my uni did not send a medical form to me, it's mainly an online self-report thingy. You need to submit paper records too. But what I heard is that alot of foreign students end up taking their jabs there. (not sure whether it's because they fail to produce a paper documentation or that they have not had those immunization shots taken. I can't find my BCG/ polio/ tetanus/ hepatitis B record and the GP i saw refused to sign it off for me. Do u have any friendly doctor-friend? :P

2. People I have yet to see before I leave

3. Weddings that I will miss
Including my own brother's & many good friend's


Prayers
1. Catch my connecting flight in O'hare Chicago
I have 2 1/2 hrs transition time there. With this I need to pass by the immigration/custom queue, fly across terminals (international -> domestic), pass another security line before the domestic terminal. Plus I have another friend waiting at Pittburgh for me at night. She stays 2 1/2 hrs away from the airport. We won't want her to wait till midnight for me if I were to be placed in the next flight.

2. Housing
Not found accomodation yet. I am not sure whether to arrange them online or find it when I arrived. I figure the issue is not so much as a place to stay, but housemates and the area where I live in. So i'll have to take the risk to find it there.

3. Church
to serve in and worship God. God's ppl to love and be loved :)

pure joy

Pure joy. How many of us get to experience that? Or are actually experiencing it?


It's tempting to get angry or all worked out when things don't go our way. Very often we yield to hopelessness or despair. To cope with that in mind, we dig a cave, throw mud on others or like me, walk around like a zombie.

Little did I realize the effect of my weather casted on my surroundings(although I like to think that i'm invisible sometimes). It has been quite an adventure for the past two years since I graduated. I felt like a gypsy. Cruising. Direction? Unknown. But the good thing was, this gypsy made alot of discovery about herself or see paths unknown to her eyes if she did not start the ride.

One stormy day, a friend showed me sunbeams: a
"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him"

She encouraged me: "Have joy, knowing that through all these trials and uncertainties, there is a purpose. God has a greater agenda for u ! Be joyful in knowing (vs apathy for unknown)! Ask God for wisdom when ur stuck or tested. "


We have a choice : Praise the Lord? or kick the wall?

Paul could have a reason to get bitter. He was rewarded with a sentence to jail right after casting the devil out of a girl. Instead, he led a celebration of praise in his cell. The prison doors could not content his joy that it burst open.


pictures taken fr cherating at dawn/sunrise with the guidance of a xifu.

sunday

Last Sunday I celebrated Palm Sunday with my Sunday School preschooler's class. Btw, our Sunday School just got a new name. Kids For Christ (KFC). "no..." said the groovier folks. Imagine them growing up associating themselves with chicken? Finger-licking Christ's chickens? :) Anyways, I did of sketch of Jesus riding on a donkey to Jerusalem from Mt Olives. The girls were the crowd waving leaves to welcome Jesus.

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The important revelation I received from this lesson was that our King did not come with a robe and chariots, but He came riding on a donkey saddled with mere clothings put on by his disciples. An age old prophecy fulfilled with awe entwine with meekness.

a "hosanna, hosanna"

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Easter play, thus- Sats. I got robbed in just 2 weeks before to fill in the background music. Most of the cast & crew have sweated for 2 months to see "the perfect murdered" (title of our play) solved though.

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I'm feeling nostalgic about it. Now that it has ended. It felt good to be part of something big. It felt good to see people presenting their best to God. It felt good to be working with one another for a cause, a purpose.
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Through this play, I developed a growing appreciation and a sense of pride towards my church, my family. Seeing talents in the house came to bloom. Pat, the director - i'm pretty positive about her becoming a famous movie director. Someday. Suet Beng's scripts... ps Mal's and Suet Beng's voice... there's 'woa' factor that goes beyond the ordinaire. I'm hoping for greater things to come.

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Pull open the curtains of March, and there you find me flapping my wings (trying to) on new grounds. I'm learning. Learning how to teach little children who do not know how to learn by themselves. Lessons which come naturally to us are a long journey to some. Learning how to be self-less so that others can be loved. Learning that I can't go around thinking what I would like to think, feeling what I would like to feel or saying what I would like to say.... learning that the decisions we made are not just unto us. Our steps are connected to God, our love ones, others who depended on us, people before and after us... because we matter, because He loves. Our past, our present, our future, our community are weaved together as a piece of story... our story are weaved into a grand scheme...

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Life is a journey of lessons arranged in zig-zagged steps. We do not choose them. They come to us. If we do not learn to pick up the steps, we remain stuck or we would be ushered into a different doorway with different steps.

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I duno when I become so philosophical. Maybe it's because 'm sad about having to leave soon. Maybe i'm waking up. Maybe it's the changes i'm going through.

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Good-day March !

because he lives, there's always hope. Happy Easter ! (:

good morning

last year slipped by, and I hardly miss it.
Except the sassy golden hunk who faithfully waited by me each day when i came home... my neighbor's retriever moved. I didn't ask for his name :(

Here's to 2008...Nature greets thee !

purple on sky

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violet impatiens

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sleeping morning glories

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white lilies
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hanging foliage

goodbye 2007...

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pictures taken fr aunty YF's hse.

*~...bells are ringing...~*

December came ringing with many bells...

1. ring ring : My friend Sel got her coveted ring last nite !! Here's the 2-days-before-Christmas-story : (retold fr Luke 2 : 9 - 56)

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9-10 And, lo, the angel came upon us by sms saying, "Behold, i bring you good tidings of joy. For unto you shall witness this day the engagement of Sel, our beloved friend"

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the angel

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15 The kpc friends said to one another, "let us now go even unto Ps Mal's house (there's a gp of carolers already there), and see this thing which is come to pass"

ps Mal's house

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16 And they came with haste, and found Gavin on a guitar and stool. "you said i hardly display public affection, here's one for u" expressed the courtier to his beloved. And so a love sonet sang he.

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17 And they circled around the courtier and courted, screamed and took pictures.

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19 But Sel pondered "why are u so happy, it's jst a song"...

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53 And so a turquoise paper bag took him out and presented to his beloved. She was all smiles. (who wouldn't? it's Tiffany's). Into the bag went her hands, and found her a ring box. *scruffle scruffle*

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54 and lo and behold there was nothing in the box. not a ring to be found.

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55 "sigh" said she, thinking it was one of those bachelor's joke.

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56 Then.... he got down on his knees....and said a bunch of stuffs nobody except sel can rmb... and she exclaimed "yes". not one but 3,4,5 times? jumping up and down... and history was made.

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2. Belle : My friend Eliza gave birth to a belle, 5pm, 23rd of December. Beatrice is her name. I've not seen her yet, but mummy said she's pweety.

3. Ding : Sent my car for service yesterday. Gone's my macro lens dream. Can't sing Merry Christmas. Maybe silent night will do.
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4. Dong : My friend's kelissa got hijacked. It's a classic story of being hit from the back of the car, she got out of the car, and a man in office attire went to inspect the damage and ran off with her car.
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I felt really sorry for her. She still has one year of car-loan to pay. I'm not sure whether asking "why" would help. God sends rain to both the wicked and good (Mat 5: 45), at the same time he also allows us to experience the rot of the society.
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But God's mercy & providence has never failed to echo through the ages. God commanded the farmers to leave behind a portion of the field unharvested (Lev 19:9-10). Like a special lane for the the less. I thought we could come together to patch up for the lost. The love guide chapter teaches us that "love covers all things" (1 Cor 13:7). Perhaps by sharing God's love we can weave up what has been tore... it can be made new...
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*enchanted*

that's how you know...

i got *enchanted* last night, right after my last paper :)

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And here's pieces of my thoughts after being magically dusted by princess gisele. (read 1,2 & 5 only if you intend to watch it and would not like me to spoil the story).
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#1 Some girly thoughts to mull over :

...Amy Adam is simply irresistable as a princess dropped out of the happily-ever-after cartoon world. I like her...

--simple girly wishes

--do u truly believe prince edward will come for u?"; "yes", hands clasp hopefully

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--her dresses made by squirrels and doves are simply lovely

--btw,curtain make great clothes too!

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#2 why you should get enchanted by it this season :

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...cutest expression ever seen

...she's cute when she cries or is mad. btw, she plays with crockcoaches & rats too :p

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...fantastic choreographing

...somehow reminded me of bollywood

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...Adam's lovely vocals.

...critics has compared her character to Julie Andrews in children's movie. she doesn't just sing, every word's shimmered by her sweet longings.

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...you get to laugh silly-ly at how cartoon characters come into the real world unarmed with worldly knowledge

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#3 the best part of the movie was :

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...a little girl happily swiping Robert's emergency card :p

...all Gisele did was sing and all creation woke up to her call...

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#4 lessons and insights

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... I can relate to Robert's skepticism in the faithfulness of fairy tales, perhaps due to his wife leaving both him and his daughter. I guess the incident was like shattering a perfect mirror which he had always stared into and introducing the fear of uncertainty when he looked into the future . I like Gisele's innocent faith in the one true-love-kiss and then it's happily ever after after that (if only)... I sometimes wonder true-love-last exist in fairy tales only? (true-love-last seems like the 2nd episode to true-love-waits hur?)

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... It's nice seeing how both Gisele and Robert were learning from each other. Gisele's innocence transcended into Robert's practicalism; and Gisele was discovering what it meant to be sharing real things.
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... When confronted with ideal or real, real prevails ! In some ways, we find ourselves relating/ connecting better to people who are sincere & unguarded compare to people who's working too hard to be perfect....it feels more accepted being around them too !

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#5 additional loves

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... the fonts for the cast was grown with creepers

... pop-out book illustrations at the end.

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#6 wish it could have been :

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... i wish Robert didn't have a fiancee.

...What's the msg behind dropping his 5-yr girlfriend for a prettier girl? Are men that fickle?

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...the ending was like a quick put up just to end the show

...Well, it was an interesting twist that in the end Gisele rescued her true love fearlessly (instead of the traditional narration of a prince rescueing a damsel in distress), but the seperation was too short (and crap) for an adventure. I'd rather Queen Narissa snatched Gisele back into the fairy-tale land and Robert jumping into the cartoon world to rescue her instead :P

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* checked out some macro lenses today. found out that they dont' bring in tamron 90mm f2.8 for pentax; but i discovered that a pentax 100mm f2.8 cost rm 100 > only. Good. Now all i need is a sponsor. Anybody also can. Win-wins are negotiable ;p

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** if they're arresting more lawyers & oppositions, it will just demonstrate how very democratic we are ! btw, u know when there's a protest going on when there's roadblocks and jams at wee hours under the sun. it was rather jam when i drove to pusat bandar d'sara area ytdy. thk god i made it to the exam hall in time.

hello december !

she looks at the mirror

and it says 'go back and do your assignment'

sighs


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[picture of a girl at mirror with her tongue sticking out => "bleh"]


hello december !
somehow i kept reminiscencing on the people i miss... christmas is a time to remember? :) meanwhile my very good friend s'na's back & e'za going to have the best christmas gift ever. a christmas child !!

Oh, I Want To Know You More!

Surfed across the cadet sisters. Their singing send tears to my heart... I imagined Mary singing this while she poured the alabaster jar at her true Love's feet. There's so much beauty in simply wanting to know him more.

Just the time I feel that I've been caught in the mire of self.
Just the time I feel my mind's been bought by worldly wealth.
That's when the breeze begins to blow I know, the Spirit's Call.
And all my worldly wanderings just melt into His Love.

Oh, I want to know You more!
Deep within my soul I want to know You,
Oh, I want to know You.
To feel Your Heart and know Your Mind,
looking in Your eyes stirs up within me,
cries that says I want to know You
Oh, I want to know You more.
Oh, I want to know You more.

When my daily deeds ordinarily lose life and song,
my heart begins to bleed, sensitivity to Him is gone.
I've run the race, but set my own pace and face a shattered soul,
But the Gentle Arms of Jesus warm my hungering to be whole.

Oh, I want to know You more!
Deep within my soul I want to know You,
Oh, I want to know You.
And I would give my final breathe
to know You in Your Death and Ressurrection,
Oh, I want to know You more.
Oh, I want to know You more.
Oh, I want to know You more...

by steve green.

trick or treats?

Happy halloween day !!

El'z throws this pumpkin to you ! (picked that line up fr facebook). I drew this some months back. Somehow halloween reminded me of pumpkins, children, sweets and most of all, family & fun... (no we dont' celebrate it here. so i only know halloween thru' the tvs.). I posted a bigger pumpkin picture here.

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p.s- oh no, i am supposed to study.

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p.p.s - i got the best halloween gift ever !!! rashes crawling all over me ! hideous red pimple-like spots. imagine going trick or treats with this... 'woa, that's a great mask ur wearing' ;p

the last thread

finally i got a break ! October was pouring heavily on me. work & studies.

bees are busy

and so was it like in the office before the dinner

Today seemed like a day of reminiscene...

I went to mom's school to print some stuffs. It was like a walk to remember. The canteen chair I used to hang out with my girl friends every recess time was still strong in dark blue. As I walked through the corridors, I recalled lining up to class...(or never really lining up)... the garden - reminded me of where an injured owl was found. A long lost friend took it home....his mom said he'll call home each day to ask about his owl. not her. (using coins. we weren't blessed with hp at that age). but it died of internal bleeding. :(

Had lunch in a coffee shop which flavors permeated me back to my younger days in Penang. A hawker was conversing in hokkien with a customer... Penang = hokkien. and i ate a hot bowl of claypot noodle. Dad used to asked for an extra empty bowl, so that he could 'air' the hot noodles in the plate for me...

I'm starting to miss him now. His being away somehow brought us closer though. Ytdy, mom, dad and bro did a group msn talked. Mom narrated to me. She was happy. msn and emails are not her thing thgh. now it's. :P

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I thought of my longings while sipping on my sizzling yee mee...

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* I wish I can pick up some vietnamese or Burmese so that I can communicate to the foreign workers that does a pit stop at our church. There's a pool of them just waiting to be harvested. They're working & living behind our backdoors and we're not tapping into it. Meanwhile P'kash flew back to India to look for a wife. (prays he finds a good one). I was glad we made him our friend. I've always have a thing for east asia. If I've reached my expiry date for... u know what la, i think i might like to live and work around east asia. (not as missionary thgh)

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* I wish to have more time to draw. I am thinking of my 'creation piece' which i haven't put colors on it; and a wind-up toy. I am also dreaming of traditional toys...made of wood & cotton... you can touch it, feel it...

resisting the wind

Resting. droopy.

I feel like the dragonfly in the pic. Btw, I still got alot of practice to go when it comes to dof.

I won't be blogging much in Nov. (I hope). Would like to spend some time to recollect myself for a while...Plz remind me, if i fail to not listen to myself. :)

I need to stop typing as well. I mite be suffering from rheumatism or is it arthritis. my 10 fingers' joints have been aching since 2 days ago. when i drive or not flapping it.

grace upon grace

i'm sitting in front of the screen right now. With a glass of fruit juice and my office attire. (stinking a bit). Trying to unwind before bed.

These few weeks have been wild. Like murphy's law. Anything that could go wrong, went wrong. My sos prayers seems as if i'm dialing the wrong number.... but as i reflect upon the good things that i can count on, grace seems to carry me, layers upon layers, like my society's dinner anniversary theme "Grace upon Grace".

Last Saturday I went to Bangsar. twice. (don't ask me how I ended up returning there twice. i'm not a patron there thgh). I'd free drink in Starbucks and a nice chat with my kor kor. I was ranting away about how i feel about not being weighted proportionally. He said i'm much bigger than that. I guess he's right. It's aways good to give without counting.

Later i'd dinner with my good friend S'na. S'nas liken my big sister. One of the rare feel whose advice i just absorb like a sponge. We chat. And I called it a happy day.

happy to have free treats. Duno why i'm so happy with free treats. think it makes me feel special :P
happy that i brought 3 items below fifty. (happy in shopping = getting the things u want below your targeted price)*
happy to spend a weekend with people i love
happy to know that i'm free to give freely
happy to realize i've been blessed with great friends in life.
Happy for grace shown

Grace. I remember calling for help to heavens once. my 2nd year exam period and a last minute assignment deadline. S'na offered to help me with my assignment. i didn't ask her :)
At work this week, LM and WL ask me share my load. I didn't ask them either :) they're such great relieve to me ! thanks :)
Some friends volunteered to come in office to help. I duno why so much help is pouring in without me asking. Heavens has blessed me with many hands.

I'm glad. Now i'm licking some ice-cream. I will sleep and hope the morrow brings a shower. Rain to wash all the muds and ugly bits away.

I'm gonna take a shower. Goodnight.

* i can't believe myself. But I'd fallen in love with a deep purple top. they ran out of stock. i took white instead. And I got a chilli red shirt. this is so not me.

** the author removed the previous posts for security & privacy purposes.

what i saw

Went to Camerons over the raya weekends for ibridge camp. Here's what I captured :

orange petals

a pink rose

more roses

a weed

red impatiens

a friendly cat
another of her cat friend invited herself on my lap without asking

Strawberries

me & some friends sneaked out for breakfast at my friend's shop. her parents made great pancakes. we were treated with free strawberries

Some thoughts for the camp :

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regrets :
- my people shots were horrible though. Most of my indoor pics turned out dark or blur. think my flash and camera aren't communicating too well. That's coz the master didn't read the flash manual.

- not seizing all the lovely flowers that popped out my way into my cam. it was raining quite a bit and i was hoping for morning sun.
- din have much time to make strangers -> friends

- not leaving my worries of tmr behind. today find me fine tuning my psd pics before sending it to printers & a paper to study for.

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some smiles :

- catching up with ol' friends.

- lovely weather and people

- strolling around the town. wish i had ventured more. blame the rain.

- i got some faith and idea boost jst listening to our speaker's testimony. (his conversation stories burst out like a leaking pipe)
- I brought roses at rm 10 for 3 bouquets. happy :)