wonderings

i wonder...

...why i'm so blurr sometimes. well, was caught in surprise once, when a young girl answered at the end of my house line. Found out it was my friend, and i dialled wrongly. Apart fr that, there's countless me sending the wrong sms or msn msg. how embarassing..

*need grace for myself*

... why there's so many angry ppl out there... either directly expressed or inwardly supressed. wonder whether life really hit hard on us... or maybe we duno how to healtily channel it.. or we just need to forgive more ? i guess one of the challenge in life is to forgive ourselves and perhaps God that life din turn out the way we expect, yet learning to make good of the blessing that comes by. one way to be happy ?

*smile*

... after watching i-robot. Come to think of it -We're just made up of codes ! DNAs. Of course, the final product is influenced by environment. Learned about C-value paradox. That is the more chromosome ( something that our DNAs are nicely packed into) an organism have, does not reflect the complexity of it. (i.e you can have a fern plant with 200+ haploid number, compared to human-23). So there, bit hard to explain macro-evolution fr this angle.

... used to be that most scientist thinks that the junk DNAs ( about 90-95%? of our DNA did not code for any structure) are the residues of evolution. Yet now, we're learning more and more about their importance, especially in regulating the coding and unlocking the code (transcription) process. And how mutation of just one single nucleotide, can bring such a disastrous consequences on the final outcome. But we're not left to wander, coz we've got many complicated mechanism (i.e about 6-7 DNA repaired mechanism that i learned of) just to save-guard the integrity of our DNAs !!!

*i am fearfully and wonderfully made* (psalms 139: 14)

...Maybe someday we can be resurrected again. Wonder whether i'll be the same me ?
or a different soul and spirit ? ( the future for this is not too far. Now that there's a latest technology that can sequence the entire fly genome (that is the entire genes) in like few hours ? who knows, someday our genome can be sequenced in few hours... or stored into a chip. (and if our grandchildren misses us, and won't mind having baby me, then...hehe).

... then again, can computer info evolved and re-program themselves ? ( like VIKI in i-robot). when do life come about ? one of the first few theories i learned in biology is that "life comes from life". Then again, is DNA something, alive? Well, can't imagine a software turning into life (i.e feeling robot). So, again how did the soul and spirit comes about fr DNAs?

*i guess amidst the simplicity that S & T bridges us... there are still things our mind can't understand. and i stand amazed at the wonders of the creator*

Yesterdays

" I've learned that being kind is more important than being right" ~Andy Rooney

few nites ago, a few wayward strands of my eye lashes at the edge of my right upper eye lid grew into my eyes. It scraped against my eyeballs...anyways, thank God this time i managed to flushed water and rubbed my eyelash off. Thx yik for that suggestion. The last time it happened on October last year, i'd to pay rm40 for "opti-cure" to get my eye-lashes plucked. My eyes was secreting lotsa yellowy eye-shit for protection ady... was horrified when the doctor took out the metal tray(like dentist-sort) full of surgical tools. Not to mention i had my right eye anaesthetize. eye-drop, not needle. *sheueeeuw*

which reminded me of the incongrous events that tint the pigments of my life... During my Cf camp last year in a jungle, an insect jabbed my left thigh...from nowhere and flew away. Poor k'cheng... deprieved her role as judge for the food preparation to drive me to the clinic at the nearest town, which happened to be like an hour plus away. Few months later, i got stung by a bee in youth camp... Insects love me.

2006's just started, and it's also my final semester !!!! already i'm celebrating in advance :) uni and thesis is far from reality... nyways, i'm so happy because...

1. i gota drop in S'pore... the fun part - going there during a not-holiday time for me. last visit was std 3... i so love to cruise along the streets - every crook and nook has a name... and there's always big trees waving to you on the main roads
2. and heard my favouritest speaker "Joyce Meyers" !!! she's even more impressive up life
3. Delirious-ed last night ! isit just the Brits ? or delirious and the way they make you "feel" the mountain tremble with such langour...;p
4. Zimerman's performing in July ! i wish he plays Chopin (program list has not been out yet), love the way he plays the lyrics, like poetry fingers...

anticipating what's next...*slurps*

oh yea.. UM got robbed b4 CNY...(means time to work for the securities) ... went to uni today, and there's quite a queue at the pj gate. i 4got to bring my student ID( of all days), and was interrogated, i.e."give your dean's name ?" (wic i 4got too...), but i gave a visual description of how he looks... tall, bald, janggut ( the last remark was chipped in by the guard himself...farnee la).

*sigh* duno how traffic will be like when lectures fully commence on Mon :( Like how we'd to queue up in the hall during primary/high skol b4 entering class every morning... with the prefects checking on our name tags, hair... now go to uni, have to line up with cars and show ID...