Tuesday, September 25, 2007

good gases

i've found some use for our natural gas...

1# I was squashed in the ktm once. Cramped by strange men and a fearful heart. So I thought what better ways to create more space for myself.

*fart*

When it comes to safety, anything goes. it's just too bad we can't release it by volition..


2# I've always wondered on when did our parents started getting comfortable with each other's fart. Like before marriage. Someone has to break the silence first right? But i guess gasses can be a good indicator of impartial acceptance.


I can imagine some disgusting stares and snorts hurling at me after this. :p Oh Well...

Sunday, September 23, 2007

my philosophy for now...

i feel like life is so random... and sometimes there's just no answers (no one particular).

You can just paint up anything for the situation you are going though.

You can be the man with one talent -a starfruit seed (analogy).
plant it in infertile grounds, use special fertilisers and have your starfruits blooming. Then make everybody like starfruits so they'll buy it from you and you make a good living out of it.

You can be the man with ten talents.
hide them, bury them and they stay nowhere above the ground.

Life is an adventure (or so i should learn to see my life as). Try it out, u'll never know. failings are just part of the experience. :)

am feeling rather sucky now though... trying to retell my story to keep me going.

So what am i going to do next? do something to my hair... (surprise)

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

blue banded bee

this blue bee visited my garden some days ago...



It's quite tiny, you can easily dismiss it as a fly. I took a second look after its loud buzzling and hovering. It seemed to be attracted to white flowers and traveled at a fixed poligonal route over and over again; hence allowing me time to grab my camera. I can't crop the pix too much or else i might loose the resolution.
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Find out more about the blue gem here*, and what's going on in my mind here. Ok, maybe this one's a little more within reach.
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*i owe it to a friend who confirmed the bee as a bee to me

Thursday, September 06, 2007

two people

2 interesting people I met today who made their entry here...
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A Lun Bawang girl. Ms W whose name led me to imagine her as a punjabi guy. We were corresponding through the mail and one day we decided to meet up. Erm, for work purposes :p I had no hint about her gender and was surprised when a girl with his number called. I thought maybe he has high pitch voice. Anyways, Ms W works with UNHCR, dealing with refugees in M'sia. Few things I found about her organization :

...is not recognised in M'sia because we did not sign the partnership with them
...refugees and immigrants are different...her org is working hard to convince our authorities so
...Myanmar people flee their country due to petty reasons which my friend can't believe it actually can exist:
1. a minority tribe born in a obscure village who were not issued IDs. So Ko went to the city to get an ID card. Met a road block. Soldiers checked for ID. Don't have. Sent to jail.
2. Being a preaching Christian. Why? suspected for spreading propaganda. Jail

Btw, in Myanmar you need $ to bribe yourself out of prison. You need $ to get an ID. Isit anyhow better for them here?

...police raid them. Sometime the parents are seperated from their children. Kids were left as orphans while their parents go to jail.
... there's no point sending clothes to them while they're in prison. the blue uniform people will just confiscate them away (some places).

Ms W's spoke english excellently. I was amazed (ok, my prejudice). But I guess coz her parents were degree holders who built their homes here upon graduation. Her background's worth noting :

...Drunk before Dawn, a musical play was dedicated to her tribe.
...they were hopeless drunkards. Even raja Brooke gave up on them
...until some Australian Missionaries came and brought them the gospel
...now they're saved and happy

I was taking a walk at 8pm at the park. An old man in pajamas approached me, " It's so dark now and you're walking alone?" (loudly in cantonese) "yea, some hobby I have uncle." (No I didn't say that). Ah gong's concerned for the community dumbfolded me. While most grandpas would be watching t.v or grandchildren at home, this man has spoken to our residence representative.
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He shared some suggestions to me on how to increase the safety of our neighbourhood. "they should chop off half the height of the tree and put more fire to light up the streets". He knew how many guards we employed by day and night. He got the latest broke-in news and even interrogated the guards about the incident. Gong gong who comes from Klang and is here just for family visitation even recommended that we bekerjasama to request for more street lights. "election coming, sure they give one." He even tipped me about seizing this saturday's state assembly man visit (family day) to voice out our wants. "unfortunately I can't make it due to urgent matters, or else i would have spoken to him..."
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Meanwhile i brought a 2nd hand watercolor guide in Pay Less Books which is > expensive than a brand new in Amazon. They should change their name to Pay More Books.

Sunday, September 02, 2007

helpless

well, been thru lots of ups and downs lately regarding my graduate studies.

First i got the courses.
But no money
Then there was the scholarship
next the dean wants me to change course
laters the funding from kementerian (KPT) for my host campus has reached its quota this year
Coz my host campus award more places than the budget allocated
afterwards i heard that kementerian would preferably award PhD candidates
but my dean asked me to apply for masters
suddenly the dean got transfer (hence he can't fight for my case)
then i got an offer from a uni in Oz
we thought perhaps it's cheaper
it cost AUD 13+ k per sem for tuition fees alone
unexpectedly my dad just got news that he was accepted to china to study for a year or two
so the burden is on mom now (not sure if i like seeing her suffer)
hence i am Stuck here. sob sobs.

Worst thing is I am also quite lost about what I really want for my career. "Life is difficult" anounced by Scott Peck in the first line and first chapter of the Road less Traveled. His solution was for us to accept this truth. Because once we agree with it we will moan less about our problems as if life ought to be easy.

Saturday, September 01, 2007

come play with fire

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Happy Merdeka Malaysia !
are we truly liberated ?
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pics taken from malaysia international fireworks competition, 30th of Aug. First time using bulb (i didn't even know where that function lied. was a friend that discover it). Shots were mostly exposed about 1.2 - 5 secs.