my mind and heart are in forks...
just when i hand in my resignation letter, my heart feels like tieing itself down.
my kids and their pleading face... (din realize i've made a way into the lil kids heart (ok some), and imagine the seeds that i could have sown if i'd stay. it's like falling in love with someone you din plan to live with. workwise. *ahem*)
my assitant principal's word of affirmations...
were like a sudden effusion of "light". just discovered i had lived in a distorted version of the story...
but i've made a decision...
i can't turn back, else i be walking on faltering steps...
will find a project or further my studies locally first... that's what i've always wanted to do, just that i hanged my hope too high about going overseas to study... chances are that doorway may be closed, and i've to make some ground plans too.
the only set back is that the course of my interest is rarely offered here, so am praying for subsidairy titles of my interest or or something related...
knowing me, i get sucked into the things i like, while i almost score the lowest for the subjects i dislike... research (my line) here is mostly about cancer or disease (which is kinda depressing for me), maybe coz there's where the funding goes..
so yes, pray for a good professor, good title or that God will change my heart to see that the world's not so perfect, and that i'll have to make do with that "as good as it gets"...?
oh God, what's the real story ?
just when i hand in my resignation letter, my heart feels like tieing itself down.
my kids and their pleading face... (din realize i've made a way into the lil kids heart (ok some), and imagine the seeds that i could have sown if i'd stay. it's like falling in love with someone you din plan to live with. workwise. *ahem*)
my assitant principal's word of affirmations...
were like a sudden effusion of "light". just discovered i had lived in a distorted version of the story...
but i've made a decision...
i can't turn back, else i be walking on faltering steps...
will find a project or further my studies locally first... that's what i've always wanted to do, just that i hanged my hope too high about going overseas to study... chances are that doorway may be closed, and i've to make some ground plans too.
the only set back is that the course of my interest is rarely offered here, so am praying for subsidairy titles of my interest or or something related...
knowing me, i get sucked into the things i like, while i almost score the lowest for the subjects i dislike... research (my line) here is mostly about cancer or disease (which is kinda depressing for me), maybe coz there's where the funding goes..
so yes, pray for a good professor, good title or that God will change my heart to see that the world's not so perfect, and that i'll have to make do with that "as good as it gets"...?
oh God, what's the real story ?
2 comments:
hi dear,
need to pass you something
i meet up with you ya,
call u soon :)
miss ya
we may not understand why, but He has plans.
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