Wednesday, August 24, 2005

tmr tmr..

"tomorrow tomorrow i love you tomorrow..." ~annie fr Annie?

can't wait ! papers would be over then... time to flush it all down the toilet bowl...
Well, somehow this season i've been drawn to the fading otherwordly sounds... started off with my pine for twin peaks -falling... and now unwrapping Angelo Badalamenti's works...(bits of it)

I like the way he uses sounds to evoke feelings... ethereal, subtle, like the smell of beauty permeating thru darkness... a stalk of impressionism amidst pop art? or surrealism on it's own feet? ironically, how can a blend stand on it's own ? falling, falling...
check out some of his titles used too..."questions in the world of blue", "floating...", "moving through time"... very suggestive

just that his songs usually leaves a haunting feeling...(i wouldn't dare immerse myself into the movies he composed for...spooky !) falling, falling...

Friday, August 19, 2005

hur ?

one straight row of papers... *choke* *gasp*

"Sometimes when i get up in the morning, i feel very peculiar.
I feel like i've just got to bite a cat! I feel like if I don't bite a cat before sundown, I'll go crazy!!
But then i just take a deep breath and forget about it.
That's what is known as real maturity" ;p
~Snoopy*

hmm... i realised i have become immune to the ytdys... hopefully it's due to me surrendering to the Wider arms up above and not due to my boh chap-ness... returning to my last entry, Efg said i should get more of those remarks, that way it wouldn't trouble me much next time...tot it makes sense.


Used to grip through life and now i'm skipping through... duno where i'm arriving though! haha..
I guess i sort of resort to keep life simple and light... after all, we really can't comprehend everything, and even if we do, we can't be too sure that what's out there matches inside. sounds rather post-modernistic eh ?

lessons fr JMs...
"life's about the journey not the destination
"... vs i've always live for end of classes, weekends and holidays
"anybody can be happy if all that they ever wanted suddenly drop down from heaven" so so true... i realised how i'm often trapped into feeling unhappy when things don't go my way and vice versa. Guess it means learning to rejoice by anchoring deep into the Source. Since He claims to be our fountain of living water... my as well drink from it..
and finally fr Phil 4:11, learning to be content at whatever the circumstances, coz Christ has promised to give us strength. this verse has been liken a balm to my frailness.

anyways, holidays are coming...i shall give me self a treat and make me a happy person ! :)
then again, having hope helps us through the day too ain't it ? i guess there's things that depletes our soul and others fume our heart... and we've got to strike a balance somewhere to maintain wholeness?


*fr "Where yr blanket Is, There will your heart be also. "-Parables of Peanuts...Short calls it as a frame of mind, "adjustment"

Thursday, August 11, 2005

ouch...

"keep the goodies, throw the trash"

so there... one rubbish gone :)

"fearing people is a dangerous trap, but to trust the LORD means safety." Prov 29: 25

"Also, every man to whom God has given riches and possessions ( gifts and abilities), and the power to enjoy them and to accept his appointed lot and to rejoice in his toil-this is the gift of God" Ecc 5: 19

"Trust in the Lord and do good. Then you will live safely in the land and prosper. Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you your heart's desires. Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust Him, and He will help you." Ps 27: 3-5

i'm reminded at this time that God is my source. I can be happy because my hope is in Him...