Friday, September 15, 2006

moments

"what happened between being me and becoming you?" -Rusty, Disney's the Kid.

Russ, an urbane nearing 40 image consultant who spent his adult life washing out the child he used to be was visited by an 8-year old kid (Rusty), who turned out to be himself... looking at the kid-him made every fibre of his nerve itched to straighten himself (the kid) out... turned out Rusty came to unlocked his long-lost memory- that has defined who he is (now). That's Disney's the Kid which i've caught 3 times...

i love my childhood, but lost track of what happened in between after std 3 till...eh, till...(oh shush ! am still skipping) I remembered changing skol, and the new environment was foreign, so i busied myself growing up (ever since), hoping there be a handsome prince waiting for me when i wake up...(figuratively)

Well, now i'm here... and life aren't getting anyhow rosier...(ok, save campus years, which i mostly remember bouncing)

Anyways, going back to primary skol was like a journey of re-discovering my long lost-moments... like foraging thru a locked up treasure chest - i remembered being punished by my teachers (haha, & now i get to revenge back), pulling naughty tricks & teases, fond afternoons in playground, quiet time scribbling away, me & my piano- my world, sad & lonely times, long lost friends & moments with the Father ...and i felt a sense of thankfulness for the life that God has given me...(breathe)

"if little me came to visit me and ask how life will be, i'd say "Don't worry about a thing, life's going to be great" Theadore? Russ's friend: "after all, how many of us get to be an astronaut or a prima ballerina?"

Today at work, i had one of those heart-grabbing moments -->hearing stories from a few std 3 boys (i was relieving the class and gave them a choice to do their work or that)... i could see how happy (giglish) they were sharing their little world to me (although i mostly pretended to faham)...that reminded me of how i used to stay up with my cousins telling each other made-believe stories; a std 4 girl gave me a hug and tried to carry me up (clean & jerk, 3 times!!!)...which reminded me that i'm still quite a kid inside (taking the teacher role seems to put life at a different perspective; wonder whether that is how parenting was (is) to our parents- an unrest job until their kids turn out fine; i can't seem to pull off that 'teacher' cap)

Sunday, September 10, 2006

uh hur?

"...a tendency to expect the best possible outcome, or to dwell on the most hopeful aspect of a situation" - American Heritage Dictionary
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that's optimism with a gist of hopefulness. Yet, how often i overlooked that...1 NW remarked that we need to learn how to be optimistic in order to encourage others.2
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Absent-mindedness's like a funny bone of mine - you would never know when it would strike ! Yet it causes both entertainment and vexation at the same time. So, I've decided to learn more about it by picking up a book called " The Seven Sins of Memory" by Daniel Schacter.
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Tatiana Cooley, winner of U.S. National Memory Champion who have no problems recalling a deck of rearranged cards, profess herself to be incredibly absent-minded. She depends on "Post-its" to help her remember daily tasks too !
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what a consolable news to me. :)
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Absent-mindedness is different from transience (memory lost over time). While Cooley utilizes elaborative encoding techniques to help her commit to memory that vast amounts of info given (thereby fighting against memory lost); absent minded-ness on the other hand is a result of divided attention that causes infomation to be not encoded properly (if at all) or infomation that was stored but overlooked at the moment when it was needed.
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elaborative encoding -> memory stored ->remember;
divided attention (lapse in attention)-> memory not stored/not retrieved -> don't remember.
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For example, when mummy asked me to ran some errands while i was deep in thoughts, her words probably went along with the winds and was not wired-in my brains, that's why i couldn't recall. The second example would be when you reminded youself to drop by the post office during lunch to collect a parcel; yet you were pretty absorbed over some other matters over the day and totally forget to retrieve that info.
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Routine activities set our mind into an automatic cruise, which permits more space in our mind to focus on other more attention-consuming task. For instances, you can drive and talk on the phone at the same time, to find out later that you were travelling on your usual work route instd of the route you planned to take. The automatic cruise mode (analogous to divided attention) causes our minds to not elaborate on what's happening around us, therefore info was not encoded for rememberance.
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Biological wise, the lower left frontal region of our brains are involved in subsequent remembering or forgetting. Divided attention prevents that part to be fully activated (for elaborative encoding). If this region was not/minimally involved in encoding new infomation, absent minded would ensue.
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the remedy ?
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The author suggested using cues which is visible at the needed time with sufficient info to help us remember...
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more like using 'outside' help...wonder if there's any 'inside' job available... maybe i sd absorb to my surroundings abit more... the youngest in the family are claimed to be more absent-minded.3 So i guess i'm still part of the norm hur? but ya, gota learn to take things more 'heavily'.
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1. Rom 15:13
2. Norman Wright. (1998). Brothers & Sisters forever. Regal : California. pg 167.
3. " " pg 44.
4. Daniel Schacter. (2002). The Seven Sins of Memory. Houghton Mifflin : Boston. pg 41-60.
5. i wan to be well (getting much better now. Only my nose)... not fun being trapped at home for so longgg...

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

bugged by flu


this monster strain mutated and came back even more tougher..
i'm shivering in the morning, sweating at night,
coughing without stopping & my nose flowing in tides

the flu bug has been territorizing our house... first it's my bro, then me, then bro, back to me again(ever stronger)... Maybe we sould fumigate the house.
took MC today... longing for some sun beams and greeness...

slimey's hiding somewhere